“But I’ll never survive with dead memories in my heart”-Slipknot (Dead Memories)
Dear Traveller,
Often time, creative warriors are hounded by memories of the past (as I can fervently attest to). I spent years being haunted of the wreckage of my childhood. Filled with much fear and trembling were my dreams until I awoke from that deathly state and said “enough!” Enough to being the chattel of dead memories, enough to being marred by past misery. A warrior knows that the past is literally a figment of one’s imagination, it’s called the past for a reason. Becoming the hero of your story means that you cannot burden yourself with illusory thoughts.
The only thing that is real is right now, all else is delusion
Burn the above in your brain, as it is your duty to authentically create yourself. If you are still attached to that which does not exist, then you are doing yourself a grave disservice. Let go of irrational rumination! If you do not, then you are as dead as the past you cling to.
Now I can almost hear the protests from some of you and I understand your position. As I stated before dear traveller, I did not have a happy childhood (to say the least lol) I was (long before my resurrection) a victim to La Bruja Endriaga and she delighted in spilling my blood. But wait, how could it be my blood if I am here in this present moment writing this? Am I not just imagining a recollection of things that happened a long time ago to someone else?
For who I am now is not who I was then.
My point is that you are here, not there; so why waste time elsewhere? Isn’t your imagination worthy of being put to better use? Aren’t you tired of those ephemeral chains that keep you locked away from reality? Fellow traveller, you have the keys to your liberty in your own heart and mind. Freedom is indeed a burden, but so is the past; which one would you rather bear?
Yours upon the Way,
Shinken
An incredibly difficult thing to disassociate from who you think you are…realizing that conditioning from a previous you is dictating your NOW is one of the hardest things to admit…I have made the confession…now working on forgiveness and saying goodbye…(TOUGH STUFF!) (Oh…I did write a few letters as well, that, maybe one day, I’ll have the courage to share)
I completely understand, our self-concept gets in the way of our Way. “realizing that conditioning from a previous you is dictating your NOW is one of the hardest things to admit…”<Quite true,It took a while for me to become that strong myself. But if you realize that your "self" is a projection of your mind and not a static thing separate from reality, then the illusion begins to fall away and you see liberty behind it.
You are not alone in this and I am delighted that you wrote those letters. One day perhaps you will share them but nevertheless you have walked further upon the Way. Thank you for commenting and I am grateful for your input